What am I choosing?

Bro J challenged us with this story which brought tears to my eyes.

While travelling on trains in India you will come across child sweepers cleaning railway coaches.They belong to impoverished backgrounds, many of them are orphans or run-aways.They come into the coaches and clean them and then stretch out their hands before passengers who grace them with a few pennies.Many times they are abused and thrown out.

On one of his journeys Bro. J was travelling in a train when a little boy sweeper about 8 years old came in and started cleaning the floor.The ticket checker saw him and gave him a vicious kick and told him to get out at the next stoppage otherwise he would get another beating.Bro. J who is taking care of 1500 orphans and polio stricken children stopped the official and asked him not to hit the child. the TC angrily retorted saying its because of do-gooders like him that these urchins get on the trains and if they steal from the passengers everybody gets into trouble.

The little boy fearfully went and sat in front of the train toilet . As the train slowed down for a rural station he prepared himself to alight. Bro J approached the child and said; Son, you don 't have to live this kind of life . I take care of many children.
Come with me and I will give you clean clothes, good food, education and you can live in a a nice house. The child looked at him with amazement, thought for a moment and replied; Uncle you are making such a fantastic offer. If I come with you my whole life will be changed and I will live comfortably. But how can I leave my family.My father was blinded in a factory in which he was working, my mother has tuberculosis and I have a one and a half year old brother. I am the only bread earner in my family. If I come with you who will look after my family. I cannot come. Bro J said he started trembling when he heard this from the mouth of an 8 year old boy.He dug into his pocket and gave him whatever money he had. The last he saw of the child was him smiling and waving the money he got, standing on the railway platform.

What choices do I make for my Heavenly Father as a Christian? Do I pray Lord send me and keep me in a safe, comfortable place where all my needs will be fulfilled and I don 't have to worry about anything..Or do I pray Lord send me to a needy place, I don 't need comfort, I need You. I want to die for You. Unless a grain of wheat dies it cannot bear fruit Jesus said. this was really soul-searching for me. I want to be in my comfort zone with everything shipshape.Am I willing to lay my life down for Jesus? Accept my trials, because God sends trials in our lives to make us holy and more like Him.

Since the past few days I 've been suffering from a seasonal vertigo problem.This morning it was quite severe - giddiness, nausea, headache etc. I lurched into the bathroom, but was unable to brush, went back to bed and lay for a while praying for healing and God had mercy . I was able to get up with less difficulty and prepared breakfast and bathed Aunt S. etc. I took medication which helped me.No house help still.

I kept listening to good old Gospel music - "I must Jesus all of my troubles" and that really gave me the strength to complete all my chores and get ready for the evening meeting.

Dr John who has left his medical work to serve the Lord wants us to have a lady from N America for 2 days in our home. ( Sat and Sun)She is studying Hindi in another city and we have met her twice at our monthly prayer meetings . She has a burden for India and encourages prayer groups.She has been to India on short visits over 20 times and knows a lot about our country.

She over 60 years old and a very simple person. But still I was hesitant to accommodate her as our house is very simple compared to the luxurious and beautiful homes people have in N America.

I tried to wriggled out of it saying I don 't have a servant. and there is Aunt S and my house is not up to the American standard etc, etc.But John wouldn 't take no for an answer. He said this sister has lived in very primitive conditions (good compliment to my house LOL). Actually my house is OK and my friends from Europe, Australia and America have been here. But they knew India, I guess this lady knows India too. But still I am nervous. And I 've got this vertigo prob. and no house help.Please pray very hard for me.The Bible says show hospitality towards strangers because in doing so you may be entertaining angels. I must obey that, no matter how uncomfortable I am.

I must practice what I am learning this week.

Please pray for us.